CHAPTER 1 SECRETS OF THE SHADOWS

SUMMARIZE

ROYLIN BAILEY WAS A NICE GENTLEMAN WHO ATTENDS THE BLUFORD HIGH SCHOOL.AND HAS A JOB . ROYLIN ALSO IS TRYING TO HELP AND SUPPORT HIS MOTHER BECAUSE SHE MIGHT LOSE HER APARTMENT BECAUSE SHE CANT AFFORD TO PAY RENT. ROYLIN FIGHTS WITH HIS SISTER ALL THE TIME AND SHE ALWAYS TELL HIM HE IS JUST LIKE DAD SO NOW ROYLIN IS REALLY STUCK IN A SITUATION WERE HE DON'T BELONG. ROYLIN GOES TO SCHOOL AND MEETS A NEW GIRL WHO DON'T KNOW ANY OF HER CLASSES OR WHERE TO GO. BUT HE IS IN TROUBLE BECAUSE A FOOTBALL PLAYER NAMED STEVEN LIKES THE NEW GIRL KORIE ARCHER BUT ROYLIN LIKES HER TO AND IS GONNA BUY HER

JAYDEN

THIS LITTLE PICTURE I HAVE HERE OS MY LITTLE NEPHEW NAME JAYDEN AND HIS MY PRIDE AND JOY I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR ME BECAUSE I ADORE HIM.HE WAS HE WAS BORN JUNE 24, 2007 AT NIGHT. I WANT THIS LITTLE BOY I SWEAR I WOULD DO ANY AND EVERYTHING FOR HIM.

JAYDEN RAYMOND CRUZ LINTON:)

WAITING FOR A DREAM TO COME TRUE!

MY DREAM JOB!

MY DREAM JOB IS TO BECOME A BEAUTIFUL, YOUNG , AND TALENTED GIRL THAT CAN DO ANYTHING AND EVERY THING. MY DREAM JOB IS TO MAKE SURE THAT ALL GIRLS GET THE RIGHT TO PASS GYM. I WANT TO MAKE SURE THAT NO GIRLS WILL OR EVER GET HURT BY ANYONE. THE DREAM JOB THAT I REALLY WISH I COULD DO IS TO BECOME A TEACHER AND HELP CHILDREN. I WANT A JOB THAT HELPS MAKE SURE THAT KIDS CAN GET THROUGH WHAT EVER PROBLEM THAT HAVE. I WOULD LIKE TO MAKE SURE THAT ALL KIDS ARE SAFE. MY GOALS IS TO MAKE SURE KIDS WON'T HAVE TO GO THOUGH THE THINGS THAT US OLDER TEENAGERS HAVE BEEN THOUGH.

DID YOU KNOW THAT?

DID YOU KNOW THAT I LIKE TO PLAY ALL SPORT? WELL GUESS WHAT IM NOT REALLY A SPORT KIND OF GIRL BECAUSE I HATE TO SWEAT AND PEOPLE JUST TEND TO TICK ME OFF SO I REALLY DONT KNOW IF I LIKE TO BE BOTHER WITH THAT KIND OF ACTIVITY AND IM MORE LIKE A COOL AND CLAM KIND OF GIRL. DID YOU KNOW THAT IM NOT THAT KIND OF GIRL THAT DONT TAKE NO SHIT FROM ANYBODY OR LET ANYONE KNOW THAT I HAVE TO KINDS OF PERSONAITY. I KNOW THAT THERE IS ONLY ONE INDIVIUAL THAT I REALLY WANT AND HIS NAME IS LUIS ALAMO AND IM CANT WAIT NO LONGER BECAUSE I DO NOT WAN T MY FEELINGS HURT.DID KNOW THAT PEOPLE IS THE BEST AT MAKING ME CRY AND I JUST LET GET TO ME. DID YOU KNOW THAT WHEN PEOPLE TELL ME TO DO SOMETHING I HAVE A HARD TIME LISTENING.

PRINCESS

PRINCESS

PRINCESS IS WHAT I LIKE TO BE CALLED BECAUSE PEOPLE RESPECT ME FOR WHO I'M AM AND NOT BECAUSE I'M PRETTY IS BECAUSE I'M THE BIGGEST AND BADDEST. I LOVE THE PEOPLE AROUND ME AND I LIKE WHAT I DO. SOME TIMES PEOPLE I LIKE ALWAYS SCARE ME AND I HOPE THAT MANY PEOPLE WILL RESPECT ME FOR WHO I'M AND NOT WHAT I HAVE ON MY BODY. I WOULD LIKE TO BE CALLED PRINCESS BECAUSE I THINK I RULE AND THE BADDEST BITCH AND NOBODY CAN TOP ME BECAUSE I DO WHAT I HAVE TO DO AND I TAKE CARE OF MY BUSINESS. PRINCESS IS A NICE NIKE NAME FOR ME BECAUSE I WOULD LIKE TO BE TREATED LIKE A PRINCESS AND HAVE A CROWN AND MAKE ALL THE BOYS DO WHAT I TELL THEM AND COOK ME FOOD WHEN I ASKED THEM TO. PRINCESS IS WHAT MY BEST FRIEND CALLS ME. THIS IS HOW I WOULD LIKE TO BE CALLED THINGS I WOULD HAVE TO DO TO GET THE WORD PRINCESS IN PEOPLE MOUTHS SHOW THEM THAT I CAN BE THEIR PRINCESS. MY MOTHER CALLERS ME THAT BECAUSE SHE TREATS ME LIKE I'M HER PRINCESS . I KNOW THAT I HAVE THE WAYS OF BECOMING A PRINCESS BECAUSE ALL THE BOYS TREAT AS IF I M THE OWN PRINCESS. BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY PRINCESS IS MY NAME AND WORK IS M Y GAME AND EVERYTHING I DO IS FOR FAME. FAME FOR ME IS LIKE BEING ANNOUNCES ME MISS NEW YORK!

Princess Glitters

On parents teacher night my ELA teacher Mr Keegan should tell my mom that i do come to class and i do work but i just cant sit down. And that when people get on my nerves i just get up and react. You tell my mom that i not a very disrespectful child i just get upset for little things and get out of control.

What can I tell her about your school work? What should I tell her you are learning in school?

You can tell that i love to write and blog or most of the time read. if I'm not reading or writing you can tell her that i love to type because the best ELA teacher taught me how to become a better, fast typer. You can tell her that I'm learning how to ignore people and that I'm not as disrespectful as i was when i first came here. You can tell her that I'm progressing in school work. Also, remind her that i don't let too many people distract me from doing my work. I'm also becoming better at making my paragraphs larger. I do this by including more details and examples in what I write.

What progress are you most proud of so far this year?

This year I am most proud of not losing my mind when people upset me. I am also proud that I have been coming to class and doing my work. If only I could sit down long enough to finish everything that I start. By allowing myself to ignore those who don't want to learn I feel I am making the right choice.

MY BESTFRIEND

MY BEST FRIEND

MY BEST FRIEND IS NAVONE DOZIER.HE WAS MY BEST FRIEND SINCE 2008 WHEN I FIRST GOT TO PS754X. HE WAS THE FIRST BOY THAT ACTUALLY STARTED TALKING TO ME,AND BECAUSE MY NAME IS LAVONNIE AND HIS NAME IS NAVONE.HE WAS THERE WHEN PEOPLE SHUT ME DOWN. HE IS MORE LIKE A BIG BROTHER TO ME THAN A BEST FRIEND. NAVONE KNOW WHEN PEOPLE HURT ME,IT LIKES THE WHOLE WORLD SHUT DOWN AND DONT UNDERSTAND ME. NAVONE WAS PRETTY UPSET WHEN HE SAW THE FIRST HICKIE ON MY NECK AND THEN WHEN HE SAW THE SECOND WHICH ENDS UP THAT I HAVE 5 HICKIE ALL TOGETHER HE WAS REALLY ANGER THEN I EVER SAW HIM BEFORE I WAS HURT THAT I BETRAYED MY BEST FRIEND BY GET THOSE HICKIE WHEN HE ASKED ME NOT TO GET. I WANTED TO CRY BECAUSE HE SAID IF I GET ONE MORE OUR BEST FRIEND WILL NOT BE THE SAME I WOULD LIKE IT IF OUR FRIENDS STAY THE SAME. I HOPE THAT OUR FRIENDSHIP WONT GO DONW THE DRAIN. BUT I WILL DO ANYTHING IN MY POWER SO I CAN KEEP THE FRIENDSHIP.

TELL ME ABOUT THE BEST DAY OF YOUR LIFE.IF YOU CAN'T THINK OF ONE TELL ME WHAT WOULD MAKE YOUR THE BEST DAY EVER FOR YOU.

THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE WAS WHEN MY BEST FRIEND TOLD THAT SHE WAS HAVING A BABY.I WAS MAD HPYE BECAUSE SHE MADE ME THE BABY'S GODMOTHER. SHE WENT IN TO LABOR ON JANUARY 12,2009 AT 8:20AM.SHE HAD THE BABY IN ALBERT EINSTEIN HOSPITAL. THEN THE DOCTOR'S ASKED ME IF I WANTED TO HOLD THE BABY. I LOOKED AT MY BEST FRIEND AND SHE SAID I CAN HOLD MY THE BABY AND I WAS MAD HYPE THAT I WAS THE BABY'S GODMOTHER.

FORGIVENESS

I REMEMBER ONE TIME I WAS WALKIN IN THE STREETS AND THIS MAN THAT I HAD WALD PAST IN THE FUTURE LOOK AT ME AND SAID THAT HE REMEMBER ME AND HE BEGAN TO FOLLOW ME . HE BEGAN TO ASK ME ALOT OF QUESTION AND SAID DO YOU LIKE TO GO TO PARTY AND HOW OLD ARE YOU.I LOOKED SCARED BECAUSE HE CREEPY ME OUT I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY SO I BEGAN TO WALKED FAST. I WALKED SO FAAST THAT I WALK OVER AND FELLED OVER THIS BIG ROCK. I FELT MY HEAD AND I SAW BLOOD ON MY HAND. I STARTED TO CRY. THE MAN SAID WHY YOU CRYING I SAID I WANT MY MOMMY AND HE SAID IM SORRY I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY. SOMEBODY SAW ME AND CALLED THE POLICE THE POLICE CAME AND THEY LOOKED AT THE MAN AND ASKED ME DID HE PUSH ME AND I SAID NO HE DIDNT PUSH ME. THE MAN HAD TEARS IN HIS EYES.. SO THE POLICE MAN SAID I HAVE TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL AND I SAID WHY HE SAID I HAVE TO GET STICHES AND I SAID HOW MANY HE SAID LIKE 5 AND SAID OKAY I WLL GO BUT I REALLY DIDNT WANT TO. SO THE MAN LOOKED AT ME AND I LOOKED BACK AND SAID I WILL FORGIVE YOU. I GOT IN THE AMBLUANCE AND THE EMS PEOPLE STARTED TO STICH ME UP. THEN I LOOKED UP AND SAID OKAY MR I FORGIVE YOU AND I HOPE THAT YOU WILL NEVER FLOW A ANOTHER GIRL AGAIN. YOU SEE WHAT HAPPEN TO ME I GOT O BIG GASH ON MY HEAD. BUT THEN THE MAN HAD THIS CRAZY LOOK ON HIS FACE THAT LOOKED LIKE HE IS SAD. THE MAN SAID THAT THE REASON HE WAS FOLLOWING ME IS THAT HE WANTED TO TALK TO ME AND TAKE ME TO HIS HOUSE AND I LOOK AND SAID WHY YOU WANNA TALK TO ME. HE SAID BECAUSE THAT I LOOKED REALLY PRETTY AND SAID THAT HE WANTED ME TO BE WITH HIM BECAUSE THAT HE HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY TO ME. I LOOKED PUZZLE AND SAID WHAT THE WHOLE TIME YOU WAS CHASING ME ITS IS BECAUSE YOU WANTED TO TALK TO ME AND THEN I BEGAN TO CRY AND SAID NO I DONT WANNA TALK.THEN HE KEPT SAYING THAT HE WAS SORRY AND I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO LEAVE IT ALL ALONE. THE LAST WORDS BEFORE THEY TOOK ME TO THE HOSPITAL WAS I ACCPET YOUR APOLOGIZE, HE LOOKED AND @ ME AND SAID THANK YOU PRETTY YOUNG LADY.

FOREVER

SUPERHUMAN

DOIING TOO MUCH

USE SOMEBODY

live like we're dying

This is my love life about the boy i'm in loved with and his name is Sheard. This how this love went on June 7th 2010, i was on the train on my way home from school with the boy named Sheard. Me and he was talking then he goes and starts to kiss me on my neck. Then he asked me if i feel something between us and i says yea because i liked him for a long time. Then i told him that he has to ask my brother if he can talk to me and my brother says yeah so then i said thats good for me because my brother finally pick the boy that he thinks is good for me. But me and Sheard have our hater's thats following us asking if we go out with each other.

Journal : What have you learned this year?

Have you achieved any goals? What are your goals for the summer?

1. What have you learned this year?

This I learned a lot with the best teacher I ever had. One thing I learned is Global Studies, and Math , English ,Science, and how to make a wood car. The second thing I learned this year was how to keep my cool and not let others make me upset.

2. Have you achieved any goals?

Yes I did achieved a lot of my goals because I learned that gym is for both sexes not just one. I also learned that if you really want to be something in life you have to push yourself. If you don’t succeed then you wont become anything in life. You will just be in school for the rest of your life.

3.What are your goals for the summer?

My goals for the summer:

1.To make money by babysitting

2. To work for “Summer Youth”

3. Help little kids learn how to read

4.Be a mentor

5. Work with my daddy

6.Come to summer school

So these are my goals for the summer time.

Freakish Weekend

The over the weekend I had a blast. On Friday, when i got home, i put my things away because my cousin and my aunt were coming over. Later that night my cousin and I were beating up on my brothers. I was getting beat up by both of my brothers and my sister. Then, my brothers and my sister put me in two trash cans; one from up the block and one from the front of my house. Later, my cousin wanted to fight this girls from upstairs because they pick on me. So, thats when one of them kept walking by my older cousin looking at her. My cousin looked at me and said, "is that the one that keeps picking on you?" I said, "yes, that's the one that keeps picking on me." Then my cousin asked me if i wanted to pop on one of them. I said no because she is way to older then me and it wouldn't be a fair fight because she is bigger than me. Thats how this freaking weekend went i guess..

This is how i feel.Yesterday why i wasn't here because i felt like i wanted to kill my brother . So thats why i wasn't here yesterday because i felt like cutting myself. But the only reason i didn't do it is because i don't want to go to the hospital. thats why i hate being in a hospital. Thats not fair because if i cut myself i would seem to go in to a hospital that shit isn't fair at all i hate the system this so fucked up.

HARD!

Hard is everything thats inside of me. Hard is what it takes to improve. Hard is what people think they are when they think they are in trouble. Hard is what i say when boys mess with me. Hard is sometimes is very powerful.

THE WEEKLY UPDATE:

ABOUT THE BARBIE!

Here it goes i be that girl that everybody don't like. But do i stress the problem no because they is not important so why should i care about this hater. All they trying to do is mess me up so that i don't have anything plan for myself. But then again i know that it is easy for the those hater to bug me and i just let get to me. Now look at me and see how I'm doing in my school and how successful i'm with this girl drama. Now people can look at me said how those hater made you famous and look at them and said hey ya'll really did make me the famous and look I'm almost finish high school and ya'll is in special still and I'm out. Then i will come back and say dam ya'll is still in this school "Dam".

!!MY WISH!!

MY WISH TO ACCOMPLISH

BEGINS

AS I RELECT.

SEEK OUT TO THE BAD TEENAGERS LIKE MYSELF. TO HELP THE HOMELESS THAT NEEDS THE SAME ATTENTION AS A KID AND ANY ONE ELSE. TO HELP THE GOOD ONES THAT WANT TO BE SAVE AND BECOME SOME ONE IN LIFE. TO SEEK OUT TO THE SMART TEENAGER THATS STILL IN SCHOOL AND DIDNT DROP OUT.

!!MY WISH!!

MY WISH TO ACCOMPLISH

BEGINS

AS I REFLECT.

TO SEEK OUT TO THOSE THAT CANT DO ANYTHING FOR THEMSELF. TO SEEK AND GIVE THEM THE DIVDE ATTENTION. TO SEEK TO HELP ME AND MAKE SURE THAT I WILL FOLLOW THE ONE WHO GIUDE ME TO BEST ROAD.

!! MY WISH!!

BEGINS

AS I REFLECT.

TO SEEK OUT MY ATTENTION TO THE SPECIAL NEED.

THE PEOPLE THAT I ADORE (AND THE SECRETS THAT THEY KEEP)

PEOPLE THAT I ADORE:

THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT I ADORE SO MUCH. I CAN'T EVEN SAY THAT I DONT LIKE THEM. THEY WORSHIP THE GROUND I WALK ON. THEY HELP ME WITH THE PROBLEMS THAT I AM HAVING. HERE ARE THE NAMES OF THE PEOPLE THAT I ADORE:

1.YACHIRA

2.SHEREIKA

3.MARVIN

4 .SELINA

5.STEVEN

6.ALICIA

7.JUSTINA

8.LEMYSHIA

9.MELODY

THESE ARE ALL THE PEOPLE THAT I ADORE A LOT BECAUSE THEY HELP WITH MY UPS N DOWNS. I ADORE THESE PEOPLE SO MUCH. I CAN ONLY TALK TO THOSE PEOPLE BECAUSE IT HARD TO TALK TO MY OWN PARENTS. YOU KNOW HOW IT IS WHEN YOU ARE A KID. IT IS DIFFICULT TO TALK TO YOUR PARENTS ABOUT SOME OF THE THINGS THAT ARE GOING ON IN LIFE. I CAN ONLY TURN TO MY FRIENDS WHEN I HAVE PROBLEMS. MELODY ESPECIALLY HELPS ME A LOT. SHE KEEPS SECRETS AND DOESN'T TELL PEOPLE MY BUSINESS LIKE MY OTHER FRIENDS DO. MY OTHER FRIENDS GO AND TELL MY MOTHER WHAT I DONT WANT HER TO KNOW. THEY JUST BE SCARED THAT WHAT THEY TELL ME I MIGHT GO AND SAY SOMETHING, BUT IT JUST SLIPS OUT AT THE MOMENT. I AM MAD BECAUSE THEY ALWAYS SAY THAT I'M YOUR SISTER AND YOU CAN TELL ME ANYTHING. BUT, I KNOW THAT IS NOT THE TRUTH. YOU CAN'T ALWAYS TRUST PEOPLE THAT SAY THEY ARE GOING TO KEEP YOUR SECRETS.

A Sad Funeral Weekend

what did you do this weekend?

what was the best part? why?

what was the worst part? why it was the worst?

This weekend was the worst because i had to go to my uncle's funeral on Saturday. That was really hard because i was crying a lot . My uncle died because of heart failure. After the funeral we went to the cemetry where we had buried him. It was all the way in New Jersery. The man that prayed for us at the funeral took all the flowers off his casket and gave them to all to the family members and friends. We prayed and prayed. After the praying session we had to throw the flowers on the casket as it was going down into the ground. When i saw that casket going down I stood there and watched to make sure that they put him down there right. i put money and his glasses in his pocket. Then I put his favorite shoes on his feet.

THE WEEKLY UPDATE:

★My love for you★

★ My love for you is because of the things you do. I feel like a shining star that just came upon the beautiful sky. This love is definitely blind because you always told me that you care. Then you go around asking people what I've done in the past. Love me like you say you love me. If you love me why do you go around asking people about me? That's not what grown ups call love if you ask me. I'm ready to be together forever. But, I can't trust you. I'm not the one you loved once before. You think that I'm like those other girls, smuts for those boys on the block. Love means that you care, and it is more important then you think it is. My Love for you♡ is crazy because I hate being the only one trying to make things work. I'm not like that. The love I thought I had for you is gone, all I'm doing is wasting my time. Love is like all the other boys, that you call your nigger, trying to talk to me. You shouldn't worry because they got nothing on you. They might just say hi or just say hey. The love I had for you I don't think I have anymore. There is not connection between us anymore. You can't trust me so why be with me. Love is the person I am every time we stop talking. Our love turned out to be me on the rebound. Every time we break up it's me on the rebound. I'm not anybodies rebound because I'm too pretty for that kind of mess. I should have listened to those who told me about you. I can't believe that i took myself as fool by letting you break my heart. The love that could of came out of this was worse than all the other kinds of relationships i have been through. It is crazy how all the other boys treated me better than you treated me in the past.★ When you said that you cared all you did was treat me wrong. I can't hold those tears back. The love i thought i had for you was the worst. Nobody should have had to go through a love like that with you. You were my heart and my world. Now, you are just another on the block that I walk right passed every day. I don't smile, I don't care, I just walk right by laugh.

THE WEEKLY UPDATE:

You know that feeling I have every time i see you. You know that feeling i get when you talk about me. The feeling inside would never go away because I love you so much. The feeling is like being shined by a star, thats how much feelings I have for you. You know that feeling that comes by you every time i walk by you in the hallway. You know its confusing to see you with a different girl in the morning. You know thats how you feel when i do the same thing to you. You the feeling that come upon you when i walk with another boy and you see me. You that special feeling i catch when i see in the hallway or gym i feel like i lost something so special. That feeling i cant help the fact that i get mad because i love you odee and you just look like you happy but you really not happy you just make it look you are. I hate the fact that this feeling is helpless. It is just that feeling i have for you.

There is a boy named Jeremy that i like. Jeremy likes me too but we are taking things slow because we don't want rush anything. But then we have these other boys that coming to me asking if Jeremy and I go out. Jeremy gets mad because he doesn't like other people in his business. Everyone keeps calling me Jeremy when they see me in the hallways. But, it doesn't matter because i like him a lot. But then here comes Luther . He doesn't like anyone of boys to be my bestie. Why because he think that i will go out with them. But i won't because i have mad respect for Luther. But, I already have a bestie that i have know since i first got here. Luther don't want me to have Navonne as a bestie. Why not? Luther things that i like him i use to like but now he got a girlfriend. Luther want me to be the sidekick but i cant wait that long because i have other that like and i cant just be stuck to one boy and not give other boys a chance. Thats not fair to the other boys. Is Navonne one of your new besties? No Navonnie is not one of my new bestie. Christoper Duran is one of my new bestie. Navonne was my first bestie that was a boy when i came here.

Journal: If i could do anything for spring break what would you do?why?

I would probably go to my godmother's house and stay there. Because being in my

house is like staying in school for that long. I think i will just study for whole spring

break. I think spring break is going to turn out crazy because everybody is going

to be high and drunk. i will not not drink or smoke for the spring break. i might be with

my man.

This weekend I had mad fun with my mother. On Saturday I went and got my hair done. Then we went to Burnside with my mother. I had mad fun with my godmother, my brother, and my little cousin. I liked it when I bought a big bag of sunflower seeds. My mother and I were in a cab. It looked hot and it had five seats. I told my mother that my stepfather should have bought that kind of car. The cab took us to Burnside where I saw my brother, my godmother, and little cousin. They all said that my hair looked nice.

I like hanging out with my mother. It’s cool because I get everything I want when her and I are outside together. That was the best part of my weekend. Then, it started to get dark and we all went inside. All in all, I had a great weekend.

Weekly Update: The love life....

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The boy i wish i could have. The boy i wish i could have is named Victor. I like this boy so much. He is like a bright and shiny star of my day. The only reason that I can't go out with him is because he and my brother don't get along. I hate that. If my brother doesn't like a person i can't go out him. Then, there is another boy named YaYa. I like him very much and he likes me too. But, he is my brother's homie. This means that we kind of have to hide it from my brother. I wish we could just be friends out in the open like normal people. Then again, you do what you have to do. I like both of these boys but there are reasons they can't talk to me.

Above is a picture one of the boys, Victor.

ONE THING I WISH TO GET!

ONE THING I WISH I CAN GET.

THE ONE THING THAT I WISH I CAN GET IS FOR PEOPLE TO LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME FINISH SCHOOL. I THINK THAT I HAVE A MOUTH AND PEOPLE DONT LIKE SO THEY SPEAK ON IT LIKE IM SUPPOSED TO BE SCARED. I WOULD LIKE TO BE LEFT ALONE BUT IT WONT HAPPEN THAT WAY BECAUSE THIS GIRLS WOULD KEEP ON ACTING LIKE IM SUPPOSED TO BE SCARED. BUT I DONT WANT NO PROBLEMS WITH THESE GIRLS BUT THEY JUST DONT LIKE ME. I DONT CARE BECAUSE IM ALWAYS GOING TO BE FINISH HIGH SCHOOL BEFORE THEM SO IT DONT MATTER TO ME AT ALL. IM THE SMART ONE IN THE REAL WORLD. IM ABOUT TO BE FINISH WITH THIS SPECIAL EDUCATION PROGRAM. IN TWO YEARS I WOULD BE FINISH HIGH SCHOOL THEN SAYING BYE TO ALL OF THEM . I WAN TO BE LEFT ALONE. I GOT A BIG MOUTHS SO THATS WHY IM IN THIS MESS. PLEASE UNLCE THOMAS LETS HAVE A MEDIATION WITH ALL THE GIRLS AND LETS LET THE BEEF GO BECAUSE WE ARE FIGHTING FOR NOTHING. BUT I KNOW THATS NOT GOING TOI HAPPEN HERE SO THATS A DEAD STORY.

IF I WAS TO LET THE BEEF GO I BE MORE OF A LADY NOT SUCH AS OF A BOY I PROMISE I WOUDL LEAVE THIS ALONE FROM HERE ON. I WOULD LEAVE GIRLS ALONE BECAUSE THEY TO MUCH DRAMA AND START HANG WITH THE GUYS.

How do you feel when you first heard that friday was a snow day.

when i heard that it was going to a a snow day i was upset because i couldnt see my boyfriend. then on saturday i called to checkup on him and thats when he gave me the bad news. he said the court gave him 6-9 years in jail thats when i started to cry because he was my boyfriend. I started crying. I love him so much we are about to make 3 years and it hurtst because he learning. I love him so much.

Why Do i let loser get to me

WHY DO I LET LOSER GET T O ME: WHY DO THIS HAPPEN TO ME. I DONT KNOW WHY I LET THIS KIDS IN THIS SCHOOL GET TO ME BECAUSE I THINK THAT THE ARE MAD BECAUSE I CAN GET MORE WORK DONE THEN THEM. I HATE BEING BOHTER BY THIS LITTLE GIRLS IN THIS SCHOOL. THS GIRLS IN THIS SCHOOL DONT LIKE ME BECAUS E I HANG OUT WITH THE MOST POPULAR GIRL IN THIS SCHOOL AND HER NAME IS SHEREIKA SHE LIKE MY BIG SISTER. HERE IS 1 OF THOSE GIRLS THAT LIKE TO BOTHER ME AND HER NAME IS STARQUSIA AND SHE THINKS THAT SHE CAN JUST PUSH ME AROUND AND THINK THAT IM NOT GOING TO GET MAD THATS CRAZY BECAUSE ALL THIS TEACHER LET THAT LITTLE GIRL PUSH ME AROUND AND NOT DO NOTHING ABOUT THE PROBLEM. I HATE BEING PUSH BY A LOSER FOR A GIRL I WANT TO CHANGE MY CLASS BECAUSE I ALWAYS LET THIS GIRL GET TO ME. I DONT KNOW HOW TO CONTROL MY TEMPER THATS MY BIGGEST PROBLEM THAT I HAVE. SHE ALWAYS TAKE HER ANGER OUT ON ME I DONT KNOW WHY SHE THINKS THAT BUT IM REALLY GETTING MAD BECAUSE I ASKED TO CHANGE MY CLASS ALOT OF TIMES BUT STILL NOONE EVEN SHOWED THAT EVEN CARE ABOUT CHANGING MY CLASS.

DEARS MR HOEN I LIKE YOUR SCHOOL ALOT AND IM VERY PROVED OF MYSELF THAT I HAVENT GOT IN TROUBLE SO FAR SO ALL IM ASKING IS FOR YOU TO CHANGE MY CLASS SO THAT I WONT GET IN TROUBLE. MR HOHEN I KNOW I INPROVED A LOT BUT IM TRIED OF THE GIRLS BULLYING ME I DONT LIKE THAT. THIS GIRLS KEEP BULLY ME AND I DONT WANT TO TAKE IT UP WITHOUT LETTING YOU KNOW PLEASE HELP ME OUT PLEASE.I DONT LIKE IT. SO BEFORE I LOSE MY TEMPER I WOULD LET YOU TAKE CARE OF IT.

YOURS TRUELY: LAVONNIE RICHARDSON,

Journal: what did you get into over the break? 10 -12sentences.

Over the break I had mad fun. On Sunday valentines day I was talking on the with my best friend Melody we was talking about all the problems that we had. Then after I got off the phone I called my boyfriend Tom. He told me happy valentines day I told him thank you. On Monday I slept until 12:00pm . I really didn’t want to get out of my bed because it wasn’t a school day so why should I have to get up. I got up and ate a bowl of frosted flakes. With some cold milk. After I ate the cereal I felt good like I was in heaven. On Tuesday I stayed in my bed because I didn’t want to get up at all, my mom came in and said “get the fuck up” I said mom why she said what you mean I want you to get up and help me. I looked at her like what you want me to help you with. She said wont you get you ass up and do some dam work with me. Mommy why do I have to go and wake up the boys so they can help you she said ‘hell no” mommy but I’m tired so why do I have to do it. That’s not fair. Life not always fair. I begged her so that I can stay in my bed she said I will come in there and pore water on you. But mommy u know that I’m tried so please leave me sleep she said no. On Wednesday I had to get up because I had to get a doctor’s note so that I can get a summer job but I didn’t want to so I stayed in my bed that was the end of that. My moms was mad but I told her to get over her madness and live. She said who the fuck you talking to so I said nobody and she said I thought so.

SNOW DAY!!

ON MY SNOW I WAS OUTSIDE PLAYING FOOTBALL.I WAS PLAYING WITH BOYS AND THIS ONE GIRL. I PLAYED ON MY BROTHER TEAM. I GOT 2 TOUCH DOWNS AROUND THE WHOLE GAME. THREE BOYS TRIED TO COME AND KNOCK ME DOWN BUT THE BOY I CALLED MY BROTHER FROM MY BLOCK WASN'T HAVING THAT.THEN I GOT MY LIP BUSTED OPEN. I WAS BLEEDING SO I TOOK ICE FROM A CAR AND PUT IT ON MY LIP SO I CAN STOP BLEEDING.THE PIECE OF ICE I HAD WAS BLOOD OVER IT BECAUSE THAT HOW MUCH MY LIP WAS BLEEDING. I GOT TO COLD TO PLAY MORE FOOTBALL SO I JUST WENT IN MY HOUSE AND DRANK SOME HOT CHOCOLATE WITH MARSHMOLLOW . THATS THE END OF MY SNOW DAY!!

My LIfe

Burgon Jensen was born with , with Retinitis Pigmentsoa , a disease that cause you to lose both you hearing and sight loss. she says that she was born with a little sight, but she gradually lost it. she had to wear glasses until she was 10 year old, she started wearing hearing aids at the age of 4. Then she lost her hearing completely after 2 years. the of her lost she was frustrated and kind of discouraged. she hated being around big crowds because she couldn't hear what they was saying. i learned sign language by hold on people hands. she does things like climb a wall , walk a dog and read a books . No she don't let her disabilities get in her way. Burgon is the smartest bling person i ever seen that can climb a wall and walk a dog. I would feel lucky because she can climb a wall and read books.

break up to make

Breakup to Makeup!

why do boys always break up with a girl to go back out with them. there a song called break up to make up and here the lyrics.

This song was meant for me because i always break up with a boy then i want to go back out with them. i don't know why i always do that because boys do it to me and i learn from the boys. I think that boys always think that the girls is going to come back to them by running. That don't happen over here because i don't come back running. Girls that go running back to the boys are fouls because boys are nothing but trouble.