This is how i feel.Yesterday why i wasn't here because i felt like i wanted to kill my brother . So thats why i wasn't here yesterday because i felt like cutting myself. But the only reason i didn't do it is because i don't want to go to the hospital. thats why i hate being in a hospital. Thats not fair because if i cut myself i would seem to go in to a hospital that shit isn't fair at all i hate the system this so fucked up.