THE PEOPLE THAT I ADORE (AND THE SECRETS THAT THEY KEEP)

PEOPLE THAT I ADORE:

THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT I ADORE SO MUCH. I CAN'T EVEN SAY THAT I DONT LIKE THEM. THEY WORSHIP THE GROUND I WALK ON. THEY HELP ME WITH THE PROBLEMS THAT I AM HAVING. HERE ARE THE NAMES OF THE PEOPLE THAT I ADORE:

1.YACHIRA

2.SHEREIKA

3.MARVIN

4 .SELINA

5.STEVEN

6.ALICIA

7.JUSTINA

8.LEMYSHIA

9.MELODY

THESE ARE ALL THE PEOPLE THAT I ADORE A LOT BECAUSE THEY HELP WITH MY UPS N DOWNS. I ADORE THESE PEOPLE SO MUCH. I CAN ONLY TALK TO THOSE PEOPLE BECAUSE IT HARD TO TALK TO MY OWN PARENTS. YOU KNOW HOW IT IS WHEN YOU ARE A KID. IT IS DIFFICULT TO TALK TO YOUR PARENTS ABOUT SOME OF THE THINGS THAT ARE GOING ON IN LIFE. I CAN ONLY TURN TO MY FRIENDS WHEN I HAVE PROBLEMS. MELODY ESPECIALLY HELPS ME A LOT. SHE KEEPS SECRETS AND DOESN'T TELL PEOPLE MY BUSINESS LIKE MY OTHER FRIENDS DO. MY OTHER FRIENDS GO AND TELL MY MOTHER WHAT I DONT WANT HER TO KNOW. THEY JUST BE SCARED THAT WHAT THEY TELL ME I MIGHT GO AND SAY SOMETHING, BUT IT JUST SLIPS OUT AT THE MOMENT. I AM MAD BECAUSE THEY ALWAYS SAY THAT I'M YOUR SISTER AND YOU CAN TELL ME ANYTHING. BUT, I KNOW THAT IS NOT THE TRUTH. YOU CAN'T ALWAYS TRUST PEOPLE THAT SAY THEY ARE GOING TO KEEP YOUR SECRETS.

A Sad Funeral Weekend

what did you do this weekend?

what was the best part? why?

what was the worst part? why it was the worst?

This weekend was the worst because i had to go to my uncle's funeral on Saturday. That was really hard because i was crying a lot . My uncle died because of heart failure. After the funeral we went to the cemetry where we had buried him. It was all the way in New Jersery. The man that prayed for us at the funeral took all the flowers off his casket and gave them to all to the family members and friends. We prayed and prayed. After the praying session we had to throw the flowers on the casket as it was going down into the ground. When i saw that casket going down I stood there and watched to make sure that they put him down there right. i put money and his glasses in his pocket. Then I put his favorite shoes on his feet.

THE WEEKLY UPDATE:

★My love for you★

★ My love for you is because of the things you do. I feel like a shining star that just came upon the beautiful sky. This love is definitely blind because you always told me that you care. Then you go around asking people what I've done in the past. Love me like you say you love me. If you love me why do you go around asking people about me? That's not what grown ups call love if you ask me. I'm ready to be together forever. But, I can't trust you. I'm not the one you loved once before. You think that I'm like those other girls, smuts for those boys on the block. Love means that you care, and it is more important then you think it is. My Love for you♡ is crazy because I hate being the only one trying to make things work. I'm not like that. The love I thought I had for you is gone, all I'm doing is wasting my time. Love is like all the other boys, that you call your nigger, trying to talk to me. You shouldn't worry because they got nothing on you. They might just say hi or just say hey. The love I had for you I don't think I have anymore. There is not connection between us anymore. You can't trust me so why be with me. Love is the person I am every time we stop talking. Our love turned out to be me on the rebound. Every time we break up it's me on the rebound. I'm not anybodies rebound because I'm too pretty for that kind of mess. I should have listened to those who told me about you. I can't believe that i took myself as fool by letting you break my heart. The love that could of came out of this was worse than all the other kinds of relationships i have been through. It is crazy how all the other boys treated me better than you treated me in the past.★ When you said that you cared all you did was treat me wrong. I can't hold those tears back. The love i thought i had for you was the worst. Nobody should have had to go through a love like that with you. You were my heart and my world. Now, you are just another on the block that I walk right passed every day. I don't smile, I don't care, I just walk right by laugh.

THE WEEKLY UPDATE:

You know that feeling I have every time i see you. You know that feeling i get when you talk about me. The feeling inside would never go away because I love you so much. The feeling is like being shined by a star, thats how much feelings I have for you. You know that feeling that comes by you every time i walk by you in the hallway. You know its confusing to see you with a different girl in the morning. You know thats how you feel when i do the same thing to you. You the feeling that come upon you when i walk with another boy and you see me. You that special feeling i catch when i see in the hallway or gym i feel like i lost something so special. That feeling i cant help the fact that i get mad because i love you odee and you just look like you happy but you really not happy you just make it look you are. I hate the fact that this feeling is helpless. It is just that feeling i have for you.

There is a boy named Jeremy that i like. Jeremy likes me too but we are taking things slow because we don't want rush anything. But then we have these other boys that coming to me asking if Jeremy and I go out. Jeremy gets mad because he doesn't like other people in his business. Everyone keeps calling me Jeremy when they see me in the hallways. But, it doesn't matter because i like him a lot. But then here comes Luther . He doesn't like anyone of boys to be my bestie. Why because he think that i will go out with them. But i won't because i have mad respect for Luther. But, I already have a bestie that i have know since i first got here. Luther don't want me to have Navonne as a bestie. Why not? Luther things that i like him i use to like but now he got a girlfriend. Luther want me to be the sidekick but i cant wait that long because i have other that like and i cant just be stuck to one boy and not give other boys a chance. Thats not fair to the other boys. Is Navonne one of your new besties? No Navonnie is not one of my new bestie. Christoper Duran is one of my new bestie. Navonne was my first bestie that was a boy when i came here.

Journal: If i could do anything for spring break what would you do?why?

I would probably go to my godmother's house and stay there. Because being in my

house is like staying in school for that long. I think i will just study for whole spring

break. I think spring break is going to turn out crazy because everybody is going

to be high and drunk. i will not not drink or smoke for the spring break. i might be with

my man.

This weekend I had mad fun with my mother. On Saturday I went and got my hair done. Then we went to Burnside with my mother. I had mad fun with my godmother, my brother, and my little cousin. I liked it when I bought a big bag of sunflower seeds. My mother and I were in a cab. It looked hot and it had five seats. I told my mother that my stepfather should have bought that kind of car. The cab took us to Burnside where I saw my brother, my godmother, and little cousin. They all said that my hair looked nice.

I like hanging out with my mother. It’s cool because I get everything I want when her and I are outside together. That was the best part of my weekend. Then, it started to get dark and we all went inside. All in all, I had a great weekend.