Freakish Weekend

The over the weekend I had a blast. On Friday, when i got home, i put my things away because my cousin and my aunt were coming over. Later that night my cousin and I were beating up on my brothers. I was getting beat up by both of my brothers and my sister. Then, my brothers and my sister put me in two trash cans; one from up the block and one from the front of my house. Later, my cousin wanted to fight this girls from upstairs because they pick on me. So, thats when one of them kept walking by my older cousin looking at her. My cousin looked at me and said, "is that the one that keeps picking on you?" I said, "yes, that's the one that keeps picking on me." Then my cousin asked me if i wanted to pop on one of them. I said no because she is way to older then me and it wouldn't be a fair fight because she is bigger than me. Thats how this freaking weekend went i guess..

This is how i feel.Yesterday why i wasn't here because i felt like i wanted to kill my brother . So thats why i wasn't here yesterday because i felt like cutting myself. But the only reason i didn't do it is because i don't want to go to the hospital. thats why i hate being in a hospital. Thats not fair because if i cut myself i would seem to go in to a hospital that shit isn't fair at all i hate the system this so fucked up.

HARD!

Hard is everything thats inside of me. Hard is what it takes to improve. Hard is what people think they are when they think they are in trouble. Hard is what i say when boys mess with me. Hard is sometimes is very powerful.

THE WEEKLY UPDATE:

ABOUT THE BARBIE!

Here it goes i be that girl that everybody don't like. But do i stress the problem no because they is not important so why should i care about this hater. All they trying to do is mess me up so that i don't have anything plan for myself. But then again i know that it is easy for the those hater to bug me and i just let get to me. Now look at me and see how I'm doing in my school and how successful i'm with this girl drama. Now people can look at me said how those hater made you famous and look at them and said hey ya'll really did make me the famous and look I'm almost finish high school and ya'll is in special still and I'm out. Then i will come back and say dam ya'll is still in this school "Dam".

!!MY WISH!!

MY WISH TO ACCOMPLISH

BEGINS

AS I RELECT.

SEEK OUT TO THE BAD TEENAGERS LIKE MYSELF. TO HELP THE HOMELESS THAT NEEDS THE SAME ATTENTION AS A KID AND ANY ONE ELSE. TO HELP THE GOOD ONES THAT WANT TO BE SAVE AND BECOME SOME ONE IN LIFE. TO SEEK OUT TO THE SMART TEENAGER THATS STILL IN SCHOOL AND DIDNT DROP OUT.

!!MY WISH!!

MY WISH TO ACCOMPLISH

BEGINS

AS I REFLECT.

TO SEEK OUT TO THOSE THAT CANT DO ANYTHING FOR THEMSELF. TO SEEK AND GIVE THEM THE DIVDE ATTENTION. TO SEEK TO HELP ME AND MAKE SURE THAT I WILL FOLLOW THE ONE WHO GIUDE ME TO BEST ROAD.

!! MY WISH!!

BEGINS

AS I REFLECT.

TO SEEK OUT MY ATTENTION TO THE SPECIAL NEED.